It's weird. Even i feel thinking about what i think i want.
I want to settle now. Kinda early eh?
I want to get a house in the suburbans, not too far from everywhere and most importantly, a nice backyard where the evening sun basks upon and a front porch that the morning sun can seep into.
And if possible, have my closest friends live around me, maybe next block or just down the street. Then during the weekends we can have breakfast together or maybe a good chat over coffee after dinner.
We know each other as though there isnt any secrets between us; we know each other inside out and down to the nuances each of us have or had.
I want to have kids and when they are in the infancy stage they shall be my children and when they are in puberty, i shall be their friend and when i'm old, i shall be their children's grandfather.
And i will be godfather to some.
Maybe every other weekend, i will catch up with my outer circle of friends, seeing how they are doing and if they need my help.
I think i have to have some influence and power eh?
I have to learn to open up, to talk to my parents and relatives more.
It seems as though studies have drained me of my time to talk to them.
I think i need quite a bit of money to upkeep myself too, judging from the big house i want to have.
I want to have kids when i still have the energy, not when i'm gonna hit 40 and chuck my kids to my parents or childcare centres to take care of. Though inevitably, due to work, i may have to.
Ironically, some of the above are actually achieveable now, just that i have to study for the "greater good" in the future.
Ahh.everything here seems to be jumbled up left right center.
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I once swear to myself that i will not go into politics because of it's nature in Singapore. Ironically, i'm very likely to do political science in university. And IF i go UK to further my studies, i will do PPE(Politics, Philosophy, Economics).
Maybe i will go into social work, giving advice to people. Consultant? Counsellor?
I dont know.
The future seems so cloudy; and after i thought i settled some(like parts of uni apps), there seems to be more fog even though i'm clearing them as fast as i can. One thing's for certain, i've to serve two years of community service from january onwards.
On a side note, i remember doing a GP compre which said something about George W. Bush asking Americans to do two years of comm service in their lifetime. Haha. We Singaporeans have better you to that.
Anyway, i'm quite sure i wont die penniless or just another other person who kicked the bucket.
Death shall come to me when my time is due and i hope that before i'm six feet under, i did my part.
So there.